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6 Months On T (and a New Video)

As I was driving home from work tonight, I realized that it’s been six months since I started on T! I haven’t done a video in a while (I didn’t know whether there’d be much of a difference), but I thought the six-month mark would be a good opportunity to record another. And so, without further ado, here it is:

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Chris Colfer Makes Me Feel Better About My Voice

This:

In the past four weeks at work, I have been called “ma’am,” “she,” or “Miss” (or “Diane” — really?) by roughly 140 different people on the phone. It’s frustrating, especially since it doesn’t feel as though my voice has been getting much lower in the past few weeks. And then I stumbled upon the video above in which Chris Colfer speaks about his voice on Lopez Tonight. The fact that people nearly always assume he’s a woman over the phone makes me feel so much better. Continue reading

4 Months On T!

I started taking T (testosterone) exactly four months ago, on the 2nd of June. I was reminded yesterday at my best friend’s wedding (by multiple people who haven’t seen/heard me in a while) that my voice has indeed been changing, so I thought that I would record another video to mark the occasion and display what my voice currently sounds like. Continue reading

This Job Is Not Pisces-Friendly

I was told on Friday that handling abusive language is simply part of the job. No rudeness or irritation or anything that isn’t strictly professional is allowed, and we can’t transfer the caller to a supervisor unless the person makes direct threats of violence — a pattern of either will lead to being fired. I can’t tell you how nervous and, well, unsupported that makes me feel. I’ve never been in a situation like that before, even though the rest of the people in the class seemed to take that as being pretty standard. Nowhere I’ve ever worked would have told me that I should just get used to be shouted and sworn at. I’m really not looking forward to training being over and having to actually start the job. Continue reading

From Soprano 2 to Tenor 2: I’m Joining a Chorus!

For months, I have considered auditioning for a local LGBTA chorus: I love to sing, and I miss choral singing. Since I started T three months ago, however, my singing voice has changed immensely, which made selecting an audition piece absolutely nerve-wracking (not to mention the actual rehearsing of it and auditioning itself). As of Monday of last week, when I worked on my voice with my former high school choir director, I had a six-note singing range. That’s less than one octave. Nevertheless, I auditioned, and they accepted me! Continue reading

Two Months On T and My First Video

I started on T exactly two months ago today — the 2nd of June, 2011. The biggest change thus far has definitely been to my voice. And since it is rather difficult to express, in writing, what my voice sounds like, I thought I would post a video on YouTube so that you can hear what my voice sounds like.  Continue reading

Something I’ve Never Told Anyone

Write about one thing you’ve never told anyone and explain why

This sounds odd, but I’m not actually certain what I’ve told people. There are, of course, a number of things I’ve kept under wraps, so to speak, but I’ve not really kept track of my secrets. I email certain people and just sort of unload everything in my mind at the time . . . pretty much without a filter. And then I don’t necessarily remember every single word of the tens or hundreds of thousands. But I’ve shared most of my secrets, whether they be related to gender, queerness, my worries, insecurities, fears of being forgotten. It’s difficult to think of something I’m certain I’ve never told anyone. And then if I can, it’s not necessarily something about which I want to blog — really, if I haven’t told the people I trust most, why would I tell the internet? Still, there’s one thing I’m willing to share that I’m pretty sure I’ve not yet told to anyone.  Continue reading

Two Weeks On T!

For the first month I’m on T, I’m supposed to get my shot every two weeks, and this past fortnight since my first shot has gone by so slowly. Of course, by the weekend after my first shot of T, I was already getting impatient for my next one. I was so tempted to get my second shot last week — I am really not good with this patience thing — but I managed to restrain myself. I got my script from a doctor, after all; I might as well listen to her directions (especially since I’m sure there’s a good reason for it). Continue reading

Being Scared of Losing My Voice and Letting Go of That Fear

Over the past year or two, I’ve struggled with my voice and what I’m going to do about it. Mostly, my frustrations have been about sounding like a twelve-year-old. Around New Year’s, though, I decided for certain that I’m going on T. And while I absolutely believe that that’s the right decision for me, it’s also opened up a whole new set of worries about what will happen with my singing voice.  Continue reading

Recording Studios + Solos = Gender Issues

EXPLORING TRANS — TUESDAY, MAY 4, 2010, 7:00 PM

I sing with an a cappella group, which I love. It’s one of my favorite parts of my life at college. Today, we went to the recording studio to begin recording my senior solo. Recording is usually a lot of fun, but today it was really stressful.

To start with, I’m not a really confident singer, and my sense of rhythm is surprising lacking for a singer. So, I’m recording the scratch track (the track the others listen to as they record, so that we can all be together), and it fails. I’m continually off the proper rhythm. It doesn’t help that they keep using feminine pronouns for me, which only magnifies the discomfort I’m feeling regarding my voice and gets me feeling even more frustrated.  Continue reading